I Tried My Best to Leave...

... All of this on your machine but the persistent beat it sounded thin upon listening, that frankly will not fly. you will hear the shrillest highs and lowest lows with the windows down when this is guiding you home.

Well let's see.... a lot has happened in the past week.

Amanda, Emily, and Cole visited me down here at UA. It was a lot of fun and I'm really glad they did. It really reminded about home, about how things were... and I really missed it. It's weird not having them around and I wish they could have stayed longer.

I gave Amanda a grand tour while Emily went to interview someone (Cole hadnt arrived yet). I showed them my frat house, and we went to the Crimson Cafe for awhile, met up with Jordan and went to Capitol Park. We were invited to go watch The Exorcism of Emily Rose... we did and got completely freaked it out. ... I dont really want to watch any more scary movies for a while now...

The next day, we met up at the ferg for lunch and said our goodbye's... I was actually kinda sad, I really missed them, I mean they are pretty much my best friends from memphis. They got to meet some of the people here, like Joel... i mean Joey hung out with us while they were here.

This past week, I've been working for Homecoming on the Gamma Phi Beta pomp, I worked on it FOR-E-VER... I'm pretty sure I never want to work on that thing again.

Currently the homecoming events are going on... I went and saw the bonfire which was cool, I stood around for awhile not really being able to hear a speech and waited for Better than Ezra to get on stage. I left to move my car and got back and... I was so bored, Better than Ezra either sucks or I'm just not really in the BtE mood.

Well I am at the moment just playing around the internet and Photoshop... and I'm actually having much more fun. lol

well anyways.................. the laundry calls...

All day and all night...

... I wander the halls along the walls and under my breath, I say to myself, I need fuel to take flight.

Oh, monday, another monday after what seems to be an everlasting weekend. This weekend felt so strange, no one was in town, everything felt so barren. A lot of people went to the game, while some others just went home. Only a handful of us were actually at the house.
We hung out a lot with Claire because she's interning at a place in b-ham. Joey, Sedric, Claire, and I went to the Fresh Food company which was really good... VERY good in fact. The chicken... and the dessert... mmmm it was very good. Then we pretty much did nothing...

Later, several of us went and hung out at the quad... good times ... good times...

The next day we had a 5k run to work at a church near by, at 7 oclock in the morning! i do not like that time of day, especially on a saturday... However, I stood at the 1 mile marker calling out times.

This was followed by much sleeping, and in my dreams were much rejoicing because I got to sleep. :)

mmm... I went to TCAT on Sunday morning, I met two interesting girls who really wanted me to go again that night. Well, I told them that I "might" go... but i ended up not going...

It wasnt a total waste of weekend.... but the reason why will stay in my head.

Days like this...

... I don't know what to do with myself, all day and all night.

Ah, another week over... everyone's pretty much gone because it's an away game, so everyone went back home or went to the Oxford game. It'll be a slow weekend, but that's what I want it to be; at this moment, I feel as though i'm about to reach my energy max. I really need a time where I can rest and release this angst and feeling of exaustion.

I could really use a nap, especially since I should be helping out tomorrow morning at this 5K run. Make note that I'm not going to run the 5K, i'll be working there for service stuff. ...not like I have anything else better to do. That's pretty much only reasoning for this. eh... I am just so tired, there's nothing going on. I've talked to a lot of the people around me and they seem to feeling the same way; seems to be a general feeling of tiredness going all-around, not too mention sickness. I've been sick for awhile, but I'm starting to be able to breathe a lot easier now, so things are going much better than they were before, the only think at the moment is coughing, that can be pretty bad when walking to class. haha, at one point I started coughing so bad on my way from class that people started staring at me. (thanks for stopping and asking if I was alright, jerks...)

Oh well, at times I feel as though I am the only one who really shows tries to show that they care. I usually go out of my way for people and then people never tend to do the same for me. But dont think that I'm selfish, when I do that I'm really not looking for anything in return, I just wish they would express caring a little more straight-forward.

--I'm rambling, i'll be writing later, I'm sure... It's not like i'm busy.

These Words are My Own...

...from my heart flow.

To say the least, it's been a busy weekend. I had the pledge retreat this weekend, which was an amazing experience. It's pretty much what I expected and then some... I mean, I knew that it was going to bring us much closer together than we already were, but it was really cool and we were able to really get more personal with everyone.

I'm really proud of everyone in my pledge class and I am extremely proud to call them my brothers. They are so strong and unyielding in their faith; they walk with the Lord and proclaim His truth. I may not be the strongest one or even the most popular of them, however I want to do my best to be there for them and if need be protect them with whatever I got.

The retreat really helped me appreciate each one, they may all be different but we have clicked so very well.

So all-in-all, it was a great trip, despite be stranded on the island for 2+ more hours than everyone else (which really wasn't that bad at all).

What was left of my weekend, consisted of resting and downloading random songs and videos.


Here's a picture from a swap with Delta Zeta (DZ) (Brian, Brannigan, Me, Kathleen, [], Amanda)

Extraordinary...

Machine

Hah, and you thought that I would not write till another month right? No, this is where you are wrong.

Remember when I said yesterday that I feel sick? Yeah, well, today I feel miserable. I wake up today realizing that I have already missed my first class, so I got out my bed to another dose of Nyquil and went back to bed. I didn’t wake up till about another hour and a half. I knew it was time to wake up, so I got up and took a shower. Once I got out I realized that my stomach was hurting, this was followed by a slow, painful torture. Uneasiness went through my body, I could feel it rise and rise… I hate that feeling, the goose bumps that precede it serve as a dark omen; that feeling, that undeniably horrible feeling… throwing up. Well, I didn’t actually throw up, though twice I came really close to it. I crouched near the toilet basin for a few minutes until I knew that it has passed.

I feel miserable.

And it sucks too, because I have a swap tonight, and I know that I’m going to look awesome carrying around a tissue box, that’ll really win the ladies over. Heh…

I pray that I’ll feel better before Friday rolls around, we have the pledge retreat which, I must say, I am thoroughly excited about. So, I don’t want to feel bad during the pledge retreat, it would make the experience pretty sucky.

Hmmm, after study hall, I’m probably going to go to Publix and buy a French bread, it’ll probably be all I eat today.

Oh, and on this day, let’s not forget that Fiona Apple’s “Extraordinary Machine”, comes out today, I HAVE to go buy it!

Harder, Better...

...Faster, Stronger

It certainly has been awhile since I have written, and now that I have my laptop (I can now be on the computer wherever I go). Another thing that inspired me to write is the fact that I’m sick… the sinus pressure that I’m dealing with is really sucky. I was walking to my Japanese class, when I decided that there is no reason why I should go – I feel like crap, so in college that means no Japanese class today.

Well I do believe that the college life has really kept me from writing as well… I mean the last entry was about the 24 hour party. … Yeah, I really got to get on this… so this will be the quickest recap… EVER.

::The Recap::
Ok, I was living in Parker – Adams for the first day, that night I was invited to go to a fraternity party, they told me it was a Christian fraternity, so I thought – why not! Well, it ends up we were late… really late. As in no one was there except for the people who lived in the house. Well anyways, we just sat in the house talking to the people who lived there, two hours later Tim Milner, the president, asked me if I’d like to live in the house….

Two days later, I’m moved out of Parker-Adams and into the house. So, now, I’m a pledge of ΛΣΦ (Lambda Sigma Phi). I really believe this was all apart of God’s plan, Things just seemed to fit in together so nicely, how seamlessly things happened. I remember praying for God to fit me in with the right people and so I do believe this is where he wants me to be.

This experience has been amazing, and I thank God everyday for it. My pledge class of 23 is awesome some of the nicest and funniest people I have met. There is a reason for everything, so I want to learn as much as I can from them. For example this weekend we have the pledge retreat and I can’t wait, I think it’s going to be mind blowing.

But anyways, as for school, things are going great, I love my Japanese class. (too bad I missed it today but…). My English class is also cool, it’s taught by a graduate student who is from Germany. It’s a really awesome and relaxed class. (but I love English so… it probably would have been fine no matter what. \

Well anyways, I hope to write more now with my new laptop. But as for now I’m going to go rip out my sinus’s so that I either bleed to death or can finally breathe… whichever comes first.