not about love...

this is not about love
cause i am not in love
in fact, i can't stop falling out

Ok, something that seems to be the flavor of the week is the topic about how I do not appreciate displaying affection in any form. Now before you ask, yes, my parents did hug me as a child. Something that is not being taken in to account is that unlike everyone else, love/romance/dating has never been a priority of mine at all. This isn't different for me, i've always been this way. I dont need to be "cured" - this is not a disease.

To clear up any misunderstandings:
1. I'm not looking for love.
2. I'm not looking to get married.
(and before you ask questions...)
3. I'm def. not looking to have children. dont like 'em. dont want 'em.

Now, i can be perfectly honest and say that of course I have given thought to asking a few girls out... not once have i regretted not asking them out. I can be perfectly honest and say that after waiting I realized how much we would have clashed, how much things wouldnt have worked out. I mean, I'm glad i'm friends with them... but it really wouldnt have worked out. I require certain things from any potentials and if they're not met... I have no reason to settle.

Also, something that is getting around is that I dont like PDA. Yeah, I dont like it. I mean, as much as I love watching other people "in love" getting close to each other with various touchings, I dont. Hell, i'm happy for ya'll, glad things are going just swell... and I dont really mind the little stuff like hugging, really i dont mind... but i really dont want to see couples going at it. Go get a room, i find your groping and kissing obnoxious, keep it in private.

If "love" comes for me, if anything is supposed to happen... then it'll need to find me. God may have someone in stored for me - then again He may not, and i'm ok with that.

And though this is getting a little bit too personal on my part, if I start going out with some girl, I'm not kissing her probably months after we start. Yeah, I get weird looks about that, probably like the one you have now reading this. But you know, that's a personal decision of mine. I dont want to just give myself away... I want to make sure it's for the "one"... if there is a "one" in God's plan for me. If someone was to forcefully steal this from me, i can promise you - First, you are not, or no longer, my friend. Second, I'm going to do all i can to make your life a living hell for you. Third, you will soon despise me.

I've sat here and debated whether to tell you some of my requirements for the girl - things which could not be debated over. And I decided, i'll just open your minds just a tad...
ichi. of course, she's got to be a Christian. I want her to be able to discuss with me about Christianity - in other words, a strong Christian.
ni. she cant be a smoker. in fact, she cant have ever smoked. you may think, "how petty." Well then you probably dont know how much of an anti-smoker I am. I think it's disgusting - not to mention stupid. To clarify, I mean smoking or tobacco products of any kind - cigarette, cigar, pipes, hookah... i dont care, the answer is no. I dont want to be sharing lips with any cheap, tar-mouthed ho-bag.
san. she cant be a drinker. sorry, if that just bursts another bubble, but i've made a vow not to drink any alcohol - wine or otherwise. it just really wouldn't work out for me, sorry. I kick it sober. my girl's got to be with me on that one.
yon. hopefully this was obvious, but just in case, no drugs. I've dealt with people who were addicts and so no, not my scene.
go. independent. I give an automatic "no" to high maintenance girls. I dont want the girl to be clinging on to me for life support, i need some space. I mean she doesnt need to be completely independent, but i'm nobody's iron lung.

I have more requirements, but i'm going to keep those to myself, cant have you knowing everything about me... that and i'm tired...

so i hope this has been an educational moment for everyone as it sure has been a pleasure for me.