A world of grief and pain...

Ku no shaba ya - A world of grief and pain:
sakura ga sakeba - Flowers bloom;
saita tote - Even then ...
-Issa

Maybe Issa is right, but what he doesnt keep in mind is that some flowers wilt faster than others. Right now, I'm on a rollercoaster, at times things are great, things cant be better... but then there are times where i've hit my lowest lows and i'm just waiting for my cart to derail.

Everyone needs to check out ElliotT Davis, an awesome singer with a band of brothers, i've seen him twice in a short time span and i've enjoyed both shows double fold. I had an hour or two talking to him at the Crimson cafe and it was a great time. He's a good guy.

In other news, I'm living off my dining dollars/ meal plan, as for actual money i have $10 in coins and 1 actual dollar bill... it's quite entertaining, really. 5 of those dollars are going towards whenever's the next time I go to City Cafe in the morning. So im willing to use less than what I have.

Hate most of my classes, dont want to go to really to any of them. It's really in my mind to:
A. Runaway, leaving college and everything behind me.
B. Get a job, raise enough money to buy myself a top of the line Canon digital slr and become a missionary. Using my camera to log my travel and coming and showing them so people can sponsor my travel.
C. Get over my fear of heights and join the circus so I can become a trapeze artist.

I'm really thinking "B." is the choice i'm going to concentrate on. Really i think that college is not for me. Maybe the problem is that I have no desire to do much in life and so my lack of passion is just really not helping me get through college. And that I suck, let's not forget that.

Oh well, i may have done something right for a change, made a cool image for Elliott. We'll see if it's usable. Hope it is, cause if not... i'm probably gonna be mopey JP for awhile since I finally thought I could do something helpful. Though I found out I cant reproduce the same style again, just cause i suck. So I may be already dried up.

sigh...